I Dim Sum-ed with a few friends yesterday and Mahjonged at Brian's later at night. I have to go back for the buffet again. Love the deep fried chicken wings, stir fried chewy tender black pepper beef and not forgetting my favourite ha gao. It was super worth my pathetic savings. Vow to be there again before my holiday season ends.

I just watched The Ugly Truth and All About Steve for the past 3 hours. Although I'm not usually the sort who deeply analyses the inner depth of movies, actually I do just that I don't really consider them afterwards, but any how I realised both shows have this particular emphasis on being yourself instead of trying to be someone that you're not. Sometimes I get so self-conscious with my appearance, the way I speak, and at such great length of time, ponder over my flaws. I think I ought to stop doing that. It's so tiring to constantly worry and harber this unneccessary insecurity and I guess this is me once again being an idiot for doing so. I need to make an official end to my self-inflicted burden.

And right now I'm wondering, is this the road I'm suppose to be on? Searching aimlessly for things to feel my empty space? I've recited the question numerous times in my mind, "So what am I going to do tomorrow?" Why does it not feel like freedom? Or am I too used to the fact that my life runs on fixed schedules topped with heavy demand? Maybe I do regret not pushing myself to go for November's xp because I know that if I go I'd be proud of myself when it's over. Life is so boring when you have no sense of adventure. And I think it's only perfectly acceptable that I should now construct mine this holiday.

So there's fund-raising coming up, ocip @ Cambodia, and I think I need to clean up my entire room tomorrow. Can't wait to get everything organised once again and rip out unwanted papers pasted to the wall. I cannot allow myself to be effete like a useless shrimp. That means I have to start on homework really soon despite my overwhelming laziness these past few days. Boy I'm such a bummer.

This year's been extremely fun. It's like, this phase in life when you feel you're stretching out to reach the youthful peak of enjoyment with the tip of your fingers. All of a sudden, studies cca friends and the internet can all be clustered in a bunder of joy. But I know Something's missing and it's been absent this whole time. Every week, my conscience triggers me to go back to the way I was but it's so hard now. And I think I'm afraid, afraid that whatever I seem to be currently contented with will eventually be gone. It's so hard to decipher. And if there's any way I can actually compromise?

I want to express my gratitude to my Wonderful Almighty CJ168 We ownz 1T35 Group for being such entertaining weirdos and making this journey so fun and I really don't dread meeting up with you guys whenever we have to do this pw shit. Despite all our absurdity and boisterous laughters I hope we get our A though. Don't I sound like I'm exuding this sense of yearning for you guys already? NOT.

The weekends are finally here and... Guess I don't have anything else to say because I feel so aimless now that I don't exactly have any upcoming event to keep myself busy. Except for the numerous plans to stayover which I doubt may occur for my case under my mother's very irrational restricted law. But ODAC's having a stayover @ Elyn's tonight. Movie Marathon plus baking with Donna would be such a blast. And it's only going to be one of the very few times I can actually be with my batch this following year (which is only a mere one and a half month more (omg!)) now that I'm not going for XP. Haha.

Yesterday J1s got their results back and my grades are bbcde(u) pretty okay in CJ given that the papers were retardedly hard. Haahahha. I love myself. I never fail to amuse myself everytime I see a spoil grade in my result slips. PSLE aabc O's baaaaac I find it quite hilarious don't you think? But seriously, I'm so accustomed to this already. Hopefully when I get my results next year it'll be an S and nothing beyond. Classies went for lunch at Far East and Teresa and I were left to eat alone, and got hair extensions done, alone. Ditchers. I'm so pissed cause I wasted 10 bucks on my extensions which aren't even there because no one realised it and everyone effortlessly highlighted Teresa's instead life is so unfair. So midfing to Justin and Chee Peng for being such assholes. But Teresa's word of wisdom would be CHUPPP and so I will actually I don't really give a shit about my extensions because I always forget they're there anyway. Hahahahaaa. So after which we headed to Rachel's for a while and Brandan's. MarioKart, Poker, Mahjong till I gave dinner a miss and I think the rest did too. I love you guys. Accompanied JJ the rest of the night while he studied and got home at 2 plus pm today. Can only anticipate an insane week for him. All the best hun!

So farewell fellow avid blog readers I'm going to meet my bestest friend in the whole wide world now. 

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